The Return

I have been meaning to write to you lately but I have never thought of the right thing to say. I'm sorry is  not enough. Begging for forgiveness is not my style or lying to you about where I have been... yes I have been busy and I know I always said I would make time for you... make time for us. I guess I just never did. The fact is that I am here now. Now is all that really matters. As much as the future and past may effect how we feel, deal, react to the circumstances of the present, just remember we will always have this place. 

This space to share.

Where the hell did 2012 go? I swear this year ended before it even started. What makes matters worse is that over this year I have neglected this blog entirely. I was going to do a whole full year update but I thought what was the point. 

Instead I want to start fresh. New. Revitalised. 

I woke up today ready to just spend my lazy Sunday off watching endless streams of TV shows when I decided I must do something today. I decided I would brush off the dust on my dslr and take some photos and get back to what I love doing. Taking photos of my life.

I am not going to make any silly promises to myself that I will constantly update like I used to back in 2011. What I will do is I will try a little harder to share my life more. Blogging is something I really enjoy and I have forgotten so much about this online love affair as my mind has been cluttered in the busy stream of a '9 to 5' job. One of my little pushes that I told myself was that I need to keep some of the old me that really seems to be fading away.

The insane thing about working a regular job is that you actually start turning into a robot. You actually lose a sense of your own personality. Your life becomes revolved around targets and being a well oiled sales machine that a piece of your soul gets lost. At least that is what happened to me. I slowly became to lazy to post original content. Started making excuses. Started becoming lazy. The idea of blogging became more and more tedious.

I really do not what this blog to turn into a job but I really do need a place to hold on to my creativity. A place where I can express myself freely without judgement. A place where I can still keep a part of my soul and still remain authentic. I want to treat this blog like an accomplishment. Something I earned. Even if absolutely no one reads my posts at least these posts are here for me. Evidence that I did live. That I can complete something. I think everyone needs to be proud of something and I want this blog to be that for me. My pride and joy.

Anyway, sorry for the long spiel about myself. Here are some photos I took today of my most special place. 

My humble bedroom.

My bed with the bright orange Indian sheets.

Some photos of friends, skateboard, misc.

Some of my literature guarded by Jesus himself.

Some old art and the necklace one of my best friends bought me.

The rest of my room.

I really hope you enjoyed that I will really try and make an effort to atleast post something. I think that is my goal from now on. To atleast upload something every week. I am sorry if this was boring to you but I will work harder to bring you more exciting stuff.

Thanks

Laifai.

BLACK

I have been so slack with blogging on here lately. Life has been so up and down with tragedies and University stuff it has just been really hard to blog. I HAVE MISSED BLOGGING ON HERE SO MUCH! My amazing buit small followers I say sorry to you. I will try my hardest to fill your dashboards with original content. Today I was INSPIRED. With projects in the pipeline, photo shoot ideas busting into my head and fashion ideas spurring out of every orifice of my body I am ready to MAKE A COMEBACK. Even though this post is mainly just a preview of an official post I am working on I really just wanted to say something to everyone and have my voice out there again. So here I am. Stronger and better than ever. I hope you are all doing well and please wait in anticipation for more posts. I love you all.

Videos: Happy Birthday Rachael!

I had one of the worst days I have had in such a long time. The reality of my missing phone finally penetrated my thick skull of mine and my entire day was compromised. I also forgot my USB at home (Which I use to get photos, videos etc...) off people when I go out with them and they take pictures and I also forgot my own camera at home. I also had NO CELLPHONE and was meant to be meeting up with people at a certain time but I FAILED because of all this stress. I remember standing outside in the freezing cold thinking to myself "WHY AM I SUCH AN IDIOT!" because I was unable to txt anyone that I arrived because Princes phone which I had died on me. Luckily to lots of nice people I met outside they helped me be saved and I was able to go upstairs and do all the fun stuff you will get to see in these videos. So ENJOY! After a real shitty day at the end it turned out pretty good. Also whenever I go to upload a video onto Youtube or my blog the visual and the sound are never in sync... so yeah sorry about that. lol

Also HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHAEL! She is such an awesome and artistically gifted chick! Follow her on twitter and her blog! it is well worth it :)

Auburn/Brown

A little look I put together last night and wore today. A lot of Brown and Auburn in this look which is very different for me but I like it. Some new things I got online. I feel like I have posted quite a bit this week so I will chillax for a bit... maybe. Hope you all have a good weekend!

I am wearing

ASOS Over Sized Black Beanie

Spitfire Black Shades

Loop Neckalce

Brown Thrifted Sweater

Black Ankle High Jeans

ASOS Brown Leather Distressed Carry All

Black Docs With Brown Socks.

Inside

These are all the photos from yesterday that were taken indoors. The first 3 are from the afternoon I spent with Rachael and Limi. The rest are from Sonia's amazing Pilot Show. Her work was by far my favourite! But then again I may or may not be a tad bias haha Such a fun night and the rest are some photos we took while playing cards and a alcohol fueled evening. :) Good times.

One of my favourite pieces by Limi

Sonia's Pilot Show. Congrats on a successful night Sonia!

AFTER PARTY IN ZEE STUDIO :D

IN THE NIGHT.

Hanging out with Prince in the city and then took some photos as we were walking back home to my place.

POLKADOTZ

Was so inspired by all the videos I was watching on STYLELIKEU Vimeo account I decided to put a quick outfit together. Sorry some of the images are blurry but I was too lazy to take more pics as this was just for a bit of fun out of inspiration. Hope you like.

I am wearing

Black Fedora

FAUX Chanel "Paparazzi Fame" Glasses

Large Frill Neck Warmer (Virgin black)

Polkadot blouse

Black stretch fit knee cut jeans

and Black Doc Martens.

Today: Food, Playing with Kim Jong Il and Art.

Exhausting day. Hung out with Louella. Had Lunch. I got pancakes which were not that great and Louella had really good Sushi. Then we ran into a random statue that was in the engineering building and decided to go and take photos with him. While I was editing the photos I noticed that the statue kinda looked like the North Korean dictator Kim Jong Il. It most probably is not him, but still I can say that I kissed Kim Jong Il on the cheek. Then we went to the AUT Third Year Art Gallery where we checked out some of my good friend Rachael's artwork. Her work is so good! I am really guttered I wasn't able to take more photos of her work. You can check out her blog HERE. Hope all is good with you. :)